The middle of middle.

One of the things I've noticed at this point in life is - I'm definitely somewhere in the middle.

What do I mean?

I mean that I've reached a point in life where I have some degree of -

respect
sanity
authority
age


I believe that when one is either very very old, or very very young, one doesn't have those things. And while I'd say I don't have a lot of those (other than age) - I do have some.

So that puts me in the middle.

What does that mean?

For me, not much.

It really means that I'm at point in life where I recognize that the things I want to do, I still can. But, for now long? At some point down the road - either due to age or otherwise - I won't be able to do those things. That means I should have a sense of urgency in getting them done.

But part of being in the middle means it's also a lot harder to get those things done, even if they would make me happy.

For one thing, being in the middle means I have a TON of responsibilities.

I have them at work with the people and groups, and at home with my family. But I know that getting those things that I want done means I have to balance those responsibilities with my own desires.

There's only so much time.

And that's the thing - being in the middle means realizing that time truly isn't infinite anymore. It may have seemed that way when one is young, but not now.

In other words, time to get off my ass and get shit done.