Introduction
If I thought 2020 was an interesting year, I’d say 2021 was merely an extension of it.
I could modify the headers I used last year and adjust accordingly (yes I am that lazy) -
· COVID-19
· Establishment path from craptialism to fascism continues
· Climate Collapse – catastrophes the new reality
· Working, working, working
· But what, what about me?
I mean there are so many aspects of this year that will forever differentiate this year from others previous, as well as the ones to come.
COVID-19
Hard to believe, but 2021 was an even worse year than 2020 – think I’m fooling?
https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/covid19/mortality-overview.htm
There were 385439 deaths attributed to COVID-19 in the US for 2020. For 2021 (as of Christmas), there are 431384 deaths attributed to COVID-19 in the US. And that’s just fatalities (which are likely underreported, delays in reporting, etc. By that measure alone, the response by the establishment-controlled system that rules us – crapitalism – is again a colossal failure.
How does it respond – vaccines, vaccines, vaccines! Oh and vaccine mandates! Look at how that’s all worked out.
Let’s be clear – we’ve learned a lot more about the virus in 2021. We know now that the current Omicron variant though more prevalent, appears to be less deadly. We also know that the current ‘vaccines’ offered by 1 of 2 large multi-national drug corporations neither stop transmission or completely prevent the virus from entering the body. That means at some point we are all going to get it – and if one gets vaccinated it makes it easier to deal with.
Establishment path from craptitalism to fascism continues
I could go on and on about stats, but the one that underscores just how fucked up things are here in the US are is – between February 2020 at today, more than half the workforce in the United States has at some point applied for some form of unemployment insurance at either the state or federal level; for either a few days all the way through the entire time. That more than anything is a sign that the system is captured and is itself the problem. But tell that to my family members – they suffer from cognitive dissonance. They think all problems started when Trump became President in 2017, and we’re clear through things now. Well based on what I’ve seen, all the problems were in place long before 2017, Trump and Biden appear to be continuing the same policies and practices that benefit the same small group of rich and powerful – look after all at who benefits -> https://inequality.org/facts/wealth-inequality/
I’ll make this easy for you – just go hear to see the list of shitty things done in 2021 alone -> https://vultcult.blogspot.com/search/label/Crapitalism
And that’s just a tiny fraction of things.
But nothing really illustrates that there is no difference at all between a fake Republican and a fake Democrat than the persecution of Julian Assange. Trump started it, and Biden is continuing it. That alone is enough to point out that 1) there is no material difference between these two political brands Democrat and Republican; and 2) this system isn’t going to save us from anything, let alone itself.
Still some offer some hope (https://consortiumnews.com/2021/12/30/yes-10-good-things-about-2021/) and I for one am not one to completely dwell on the past as a way to remain stuck. At some point wallowing in misery is about finding the bottom, and as a means to get it out of my own system. This then leaves me with my reasoning, my critical thinking, and figuring out what my options are to move forward and back up and out.
Climate Collapse – catastrophes the new reality
As before you can start here -> https://vultcult.blogspot.com/search/label/Global%20Warming
As if it weren’t all bad enough (droughts, heat waves, floods, storms, etc.).
Let’s just focus on this -> https://interactive-atlas.ipcc.ch/documentation
It’s Code Red for the planet. And since that report came out, absolutely nothing has changed for the better. COP26 was a complete failure.
It’s easy to feel a failure, not just to myself, but to my family, my community, and the planet as a whole.
On the other hand – there is some hope I look towards in 2022: https://youtu.be/hJBHdmcSZVE.
Working, working, working
Yes 2021 was another year of excessive productivity at work. More evenings, more weekends, etc.
My boss says he was happy, and why shouldn’t he be? A lot of shit got done. All the same things as last year, and more.
They keep talking about returning to the office. We’ll see if 1) that’s actually gonna happen as planned; and 2) if that’s something I’m really going to go for (the answer to 2) is no).
Granted on a ‘compensation’ level, I’m probably higher up compared to peers doing the same work in other corporations in this area. That in and of itself is impressive considering I’m neither a functional or technical expert at software. I simply follow the late Gerald Weinbergs advice on how to approach and do things and go from there.
This is not to say the usual micromanagement and bullying tactics don’t occur. And this year clearly someone higher up than me must have realized folks like me are potential candidates to look elsewhere in that that they started up the usual carrot-dangling of another opportunity in front of me.
My problem is essentially the same one it’s always been.
I feel that what I do presently and where I sit within the organization is about as far as I want to go.
That is, the next level up would be managing people outright – in a sense I already manage a lot of people’s time, deliverables, and am pretty much there driving things. That puts me in a unique position as someone said people can turn to as a mentor of sorts; at which I can offer cold, sober advice.
I’d lose much of that if I was actually made a people manager. Also, I’d be a true company man at that point. I put in far more than I want to, and at my age, I’m not sure how many more years I can keep continuing to do this. I’m trapped by the job, the industry, and responsibilities and so on, such that it’s almost as if the company’s both pushing me this way, then denying me any actual reward.
If it sounds like I know what I’m talking about, it’s because I’ve been in this position before. I do x amount of work upward, only to have the power-that-be give that role to someone else.
But more importantly, work in IT was and always will be nothing more than a job. Yes I take it seriously. Yes I do my work honestly, and give my best when possible.
But it’s not my passion. It’s certainly not my life. I’m not gonna install work-solutions like Slack or Teams, or Lookout on my personal phone and work. That’s ripping me off, and it’s a dishonest way to mask the true costs of delivery to the company.
But wait, what about me?
After close to four years of not working my own personal musical project, I actually completed one. Well technically it’s 9 out of 10 songs (plus a previously existing acoustic song, that I intended to re-do with electric guitars). But it wasn’t necessarily done out of creative drive, but rather intense loss.
I had a flash drive with perhaps hundreds of ideas on it collected over the years. One day this summer I inserted the drive into my PC, and suddenly there was this ‘flash’ over the computer (so-to-speak). It paused and froze and when it unpaused and unfroze, all my data on the flash drive was …. Flashed! I lost it all. Sure I can invest in some software to try and get it back I supposed. And of course, I didn’t have a backup.
And yes I was upset about it. But it taught me a very important lesson.
That is – instead of collecting ideas, it’s better to complete them as songs and at the very least, record the basis of it somewhere.
So this is now what I do. When I have an idea (or several) flowing through my brain, I don’t stop until it’s rendered into a song. That’s really what I aimed to do in December, and that’s what I accomplished.
And granted it’s not all a loss. I still have all the songs I’ve previously written. I did collect a brand new set of verbal ideas that I can use. My goal in 2022 is to spend more time writing and recording. Now that I have the ability to construct basic drum parts, and I can now start recording the songs proper.
As well despite our band having essentially no real rehearsing or playing, I did a fair amount of recording of our current set. Also wrote 7-8 new songs and started recording those. Hopefully in 2022 we’ll get that off the ground to and get at least a couple of … uh … collections (albums, releases, songlists, etc.) out to the public.
That aside, I will hit the big 5-0 this year. Despite the fact I don’t really look anywhere near as I did a ¼ century previous, I do feel a sort of pride. I wore a certain size (waist and length) of pants and weight a certain amount when I became an adult, and today I’m still the same (granted it hasn’t always been so). I still have neck issues, and still need to suck in my gut, but I always remind myself that it can be worse. I gave up trying to compare myself to others, and have to not get sidetracked by the bullshit that is others trying to compare others to me. I realize now that’s simply a way to make themselves feel better about themselves by pushing me down. I’ve learned that pushing others down doesn’t uplift you. In fact, if you push down hard enough on someone, you go down also.
We’ll see what 2022 brings.