Ideas and focus.

I think I've finally figured something out.

What has been my problem much of my life?

It's simple. I start something, but never really finish it.

No really.

Completing something successfully has always been my problem. The lack of follow-up or follow-through.

I've always been a man of ideas. Seriously I have so many, it really is impossible to keep track of them.

Songs

Stories
Inventions
Business Ventures
Food
Technical Innovations

And there is lies the source of my problem. So many ideas, yes, but no filter to really know what's good, what's bad, and what's great, and not knowing how to move to the next steps.

I think I get randomized and I do it to myself, but why?

Is this a mid-life crisis? Is it a lack of focus? Maybe both.

No - this has been my problem for a long time. I've always known what it is I've wanted to pursue in life, and I've always known that desire will never leave me.

But somehow all these ideas come and I can never really seem to act on any of them in a concrete determined fashion.

Perhaps the reason is that I'm afraid I'll let some potential idea drop, and someone else will figure it out and run with it and make it a success.

I realize it was this way with school. I was very good in elementary school, good in high school, poor in college, and very poor in university. It seems I got worse and worse the more I was doing things I couldn't really stand.

Perhaps the answer is to focus on one area at at time (and learn to let go of the other ideas) long enough to make something of what I start?

Maybe ...

Well anyways, for now I've made a committment to myself to make it a point to document my ideas and do more than that. If it's a business idea, I should write it down and document (right there and then) what are the gaps, and the next steps. I should also make a determination to see how far I can go with something and not letting it drop till I know what I can do next. The goal is to have a preliminary business plan ready for one idea by the end of summer

As well, I've got a few other ideas in motion, but I also have made a committment to a list of songs that I need to work on and complete (basic music, plus lyrics).  The committement to myself here is to have 12 songs ready to record by the end of summer.

So I've made a point to also check back on this entry at the end of August and see how far I've gotten.

Y'all check back on this site now y'hear?